I have attempted the same day on my From couch to 5k app 3 times.
I have yet to complete it.
The first time I did it was an accident. I had tapped the wrong day when I started my workout and had to make a few stops in between the running to walk.
The second time, I got thru 5 minutes of running and got nauseous and walked the rest of the way.
The third time, last night, I started out great.
First set of running, Awesome.
Walk for a few minutes, ok.
Second set of running, harder.
After I got done with that set of running and began walking again my stomach started turning, I got hot all of a sudden and the nausea set in. I couldn't go anymore. The man on the app said "begin running" and I couldn't make my legs do it.
I felt defeated.
I felt inept.
I felt terrible.
I literally sat down on the curb in front of a strangers house and started sobbing. I was so frustrated that I couldn't finish that run. What happened to that good feeling I had been getting from running the last few days? What is all of my hard work really getting me. I went back inside and hastily took my shoes off and put my phone down. I let my mood get the best of me and with a tear stained tee shirt I went into pity party cleaning mode. Mr. B got out of the shower and walked in on me organizing my clothes for the next day.
He could see the sadness in my eyes and went into instant "make things better" mode.
The fact that you keep going is what makes you better.
You CAN do it. You show that every time you get up and go.
And the hardest part is going to be getting up and doing it again tomorrow even though you feel like you can't.
Don't give up.
I believe in you.
Along with that came all of this love from the bitter Facebook post I put up.
You can do it!!! Keep your head up. Tomorrow will be a better day.
I love you!! You can do anything. You are amazing
Psh. You CAN do. Look at you. You make EVERYONE'S life better including mine. Keep smiling cute girl. You're changing the world.
and the sweetest text from a super sweet gal.
The simple fact is I CAN do it.
I CAN get up and go running the next day.
I will not be perfect at it every single time and maybe I just need to adjust my expectations.
Some days I will be able to do more than others.
As long as I don't give up I am DOING IT.
No more of this I can't do this nonsense.
I rock. Period.